Taking action

After chatting with the straight guy who had the posting about wanting to talk online about bottoming I thought about everything and my feelings and decided to put up a posting about it. Guys wrote me wanting to chat or hook up.

Former straight for a Top - 25

Two months ago someone I met here raped me. I answered a posting for a free massage. I went to his apartment and during the massage he raped me. He was bigger and much stronger then me it lasted 15 minutes. I left shocked and too embarrassed to tell anyone.

I was straight/bi who dated and had sex with girls and came here just for low key male fun. Since this happened shut I down and can't think about being with a girl.

I have been obsessing over this and the sick reality that there was pleasure in it.

I am looking for a bi/straight guy who can understand my conflicted feelings about wanting to do this with someone again.

I am 24 white 5 8 145.

Talk to daddy about it. Did you bleed how was the massage.  Did you cry out and yell or moan like a whore

Yes I yelled a lot.  I did not bleed.  It was a good massage for about half an hour.  

i wasn't a whore.

He didn’t write back.

Another:

older here masc fit married 46 5'10 176  same happen to me years ago let chat

Thanks for the response it was horrible and I couldn't tell anyone.

yes , i still live with it married but i need to top younger men

it messed me up because I don't know if I could go back to being with girls.  I keep thinking about it and it how i got hard when he was doing it to me and that after awhile it felt good.  

it does fell good  did he make you suck his cock?

No.  He had me shoved into the massage table and when he was done he got off me he gave me a towel and said I should clean up and leave.

so tell me why you like it  have you been with a man since?

I haven't done anything with anyone since.

Because he had me pinned onto the table and doing it to me i got hard and because of the friction of rubbing on the table i came.  I didn't like it but I can't help how it felt.

sometimes it helps to be held and talk about it

Thanks.  I have to think about it.

Some guys just wanted to hook up right away:

28yo, 6', 175lbs, 8in cut thick, Str8, dom top

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Italian 46yo   5.7 150 29w 6.5u and huge balls.  Top

Well educated professional man on the DL

Disease free and neg.

and pics pls

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hey...understand that

39  6'1  195  7.5 cut thick, masculine and neg -- total top here, Def Dom strong hands for massage as well.  Staying in a hotel, so it'll be easy.  Come here now & we can do this

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Hey what’s up. I saw your ad. How are you?  5  9 145 lbs. 28 years old. Very good looking.

Thanks.  I shut down for weeks and was just venting.

well that's understandable. I mean I've never been raped. but can imagine it to be kind different for a guy. do you have a pic? how do you feel about hanging out today?

Another:  Smooth?

A bit hairy  (no answer)